Monday, June 30, 2014

Perspective ...

Yesterday I was sitting in the break room of my job listening to the heart wrenching story from a co-worker about her dear friend's son who was killed the day before in an accident. In a  moment's time everything in their lives have changed. What they all wouldn't give to have it be two days before and all is "normal" and life is well again.....

Then I go out in the concourse to board a flight and I have to ask a lady to step aside to consolidate her 3 carry on bags down to 2. She looked at me like I had slapped her in the face and told me I was anal and she has never been asked to consolidate her bags before.

She stepped aside reluctantly and complained and grumbled the whole time as she was fixing her bags into the FAA regulations that are required. 

As she then again walked by my gate with her 2 carry on bags and  a snide remark, I thought, the family that just lost their son, would love to consolidate their bags if that was the worse thing that happened to them that day.

It is all about perspective. 



Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

 Romans 7:15-16 (The Message)

What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise.  So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary. 

Taking a good look in the mirror of myself this week, I come so short of what the Lord asks of me. I have found myself becoming  like someone I never want to be. 

My responses to inconveniences and some tasks that have been put before me, have fallen short of being graceful.

I recognize that no matter what comes my way,  my response is always my choice. So, in knowing that and failing quite frequently, I am burying myself in God's Word again and asking for a fresh touch of His Spirit upon my life. 

It is He that gives me the grace to respond correctly. It is not within myself. May I hear His gentle voice within my desperate  heart each time the choice of how I respond is presented before me. 

I know He is and will always be faithful to me. It is my steps of obedience to His voice that will "get me there" to become the person, the woman that is in my heart to be.

Friday, December 6, 2013

The Dimming Of An Era

Yesterday many of all ages gathered to say goodbye to a dear and precious man. One who had lived a good and active life, left a wonderful legacy, and had some hard physical last years.

I remember Brantley Edens as being a rock and a stable person from my childhood. He was gentle, kind, soft spoken, faithful, and was just always there. Someone you could count on.

Brant and Joan reached out to my family so many years ago and invested in us.  They mentored my young parents when they first became Christians. They had us over to their home, all 10 of us. The size of our family didn't frighten them away.

As I looked around the room at all the ones who had come to honor this wonderful man, I realized that a part of an era of my childhood is dimming. The ones I looked up to and were always there and solid rocks in my life, are becoming fewer and fewer. Many of them have gone now and only a few remain here on earth still...

It is a sobering thought to realize that now I am finding myself in the same place that I placed these ones in my life so long ago. I am their age and even older then they were, when they entered my life in the late 1960's. 

The torch is being passed to the next generation and to the next. May I be faithful, as these have been and clearly lived their lives with integrity before me.

Thank you Brantley for who you were in my life and the example you were to every life you touched.




Monday, October 14, 2013

The Middle Seat

Flying home from PDX to ANC, I got an empty seat. A middle one. A seat is a seat, it gets you to where you want to go, so I was thrilled to get on the first flight of the evening. I am so thankful for the benefits of working for Alaska Airlines!

I settled in, put my bag under the seat in front of me and began to read a new book I had gotten this weekend. "What Your Childhood Memories Say About you" by Dr. Kevin Leman.

All of a sudden the Lord brought back to me a memory from my past that I had forgotten about for at least 50 years.... It was a painful memory.... One that I knew the Lord wanted to touch and one that out of His deep love for me, wanted me to see the implications of that memory and how it has affected my life today. 

What an incredible faithful God we serve. I am not one to drum up things and make things happen. I am always more on the "cautious" side of life. But I know, that I know, this was a "God moment".

So here I am squeezed in between two strangers and the tears are running down my cheeks like a river. I then, found my IPHONE, put my earphones in and turned on my ITUNES so I could just shut my eyes and listen to the worship songs minister to my heart and soul....

I am still processing the memory and wanting to glean all that the Lord longs for me to see through it.  He will be and is so faithful to heal, restore, and redeem the brokenness's of our lives. I love following Jesus. 




Thursday, September 5, 2013

In A Moment's Time....


Tears are in my eyes as I write this post.  My dear high school friend Frank Hatfield died yesterday. My heart is trying to comprehend the news...  He had just written a post on my face book just a few days ago.

We graduated in 1972 and lost contact. It was just a year or two ago that we connected again through face book.

Frank was my neighbor.  He probably lived 4-5 miles from my home, but in Alaska that is what we call neighbors. We rode the same bus to school for 7 years and shared the same bus stop.

Frank was gentle and kind and had a sweet spirit. I can still see his smile and hear his gentle laughter.

One memory I have of him that makes me smile is when we were seniors.  He wanted to take me to the high school prom and my parents didn't allow me to go to dances. He kept telling me he was going to go ask my dad and I kept asking him to please don't, because I know my dad would not allow me to go. He never asked my dad because of my wishes,  but I will always remember his persistence :}

Life is so fragile. In a moment's time, it is gone. My heart weeps because of the loss of my dear friend. Childhood friends hold places in your heart forever.

I loved you Frank Hatfield.....




Monday, August 12, 2013

Little hearts, little bodies, fathomless love.....

Looking at the twins laying in each of their isolates in the NICU, my heart swells.... What miracles I am beholding.  They are so tiny and so perfect and I could hold them forever....

Watching Mike and Laci care for them has been a pure joy, to see the love and tenderness in their hearts for these two girls, gifts fresh from heaven.

Oh Lord you have been good, so good to us. Your incredible faithfulness has been proven over and over again in our lives.  Even when I hesitate to trust You, You are still faithful.

Tomorrow we head back to Alaska. So grateful I have a job that gives us the opportunities to travel. Wish I could take those cherubs home with me, but know they are not mine to take :} 

Oh, my grandmother heart longs for each of my grandchildren to know the Lord and walk with Him and to love people and to love life....I wish I could shield them from the pains and disappointments of this world, but I know I can't. I do know that the Lord's grace can and will be there for each of them every moment they need, along with this grandmother's prayers.....

There really is nothing like the heart of a grandmother.....









Thursday, August 8, 2013

Friends are Friends Forever....

Last week I was able to pull off a great surprise. I flew to Portland for less than 24 hours and surprised my dear friend for her 60th birthday. We are both hard to surprise at our age, but it was accomplished and that was half the fun. Her husband was in on the surprise and picked me up at the airport.

Laughter, tears, sharing our hearts, praying, having a special dinner and saying " I really can't believe we are sitting here together" was a wonderful cherished evening. A gift to both our hearts...

I am thankful that the Lord allowed the seats to be opened on the two flights I needed to get there and the two flights home. Also grateful for the gals who covered my shifts so I could go.

Friendships are to be cherished. May we each take the time to let those friends know we love them and don't take them for granted. They are gifts.....precious gifts....