A Weighty Matter....

I crack up every time I hear the commercial from Suzanne Sommers, " if you are a women, over 40 and fat, it is NOT your fault"

Don't know where she gets her knowledge, but I can assure you, there is not much truth to the statement above.

One of the main issues I have dealt with my whole adult life has been my weight. I can truthfully say, that it is no one else's fault that those pounds creep up on me, but my own.

There are so many different programs out there. Which one is the best? The one that works for you! I have found weight watchers to be the perfect program for me.

But the program only works, or any program only works if I remain consistant and self disciplined and live with moderation. It is a lifestyle, not a "diet", not a "I am going to eat right for the next 8 months because my 40th class reunion is coming up".

There is much in my heart that I still want to do in my lifetime. I want to be healthy and strong enough to accomplish all that the Lord has for me in the future and now. I am not asking for a "Barbie" figure, just a healthy one. That is my goal. To bring honor to the Lord and a testimony of His grace.

I wish my sin was not so evident for all the world to see, but it is. I repent, and go on and know that He is faithful to hear the cries of my heart and help me AGAIN to find victory.

The Lord's grace is there for me and for all of us who struggle in this area of our lives.

Psalms 62:5-6

My soul waits in silence for God only:
For my hope is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation,
My stronghold; I shall not be shaken.

Hope is a wonderful gift. There are many hopes I carry within my heart. I again, bring them before the Lord and lay them before Him. It's the waiting in "silence" that is the hardest :}

A Trip Down Melancholic Lane....

As I was waiting to board a flight today, I was glancing out into the waiting area and saw a family with small children. They reminded me of our little family when we were raising our 3 little kiddies.

I wanted to step back in time, and redo it. Redo their childhood years and:

cuddle them more

worry less about the "clean" house and let them have fun

care less about what people thought

not trying to make them "perfect"

not trying myself to be the "perfect" parent

minister GRACE, abundant Grace and less legalism

There is so much I wish I could redo and not have let the moments pass without cherishing and appreciating each one. It seems like when the children are small, we are so caught up in the everyday things that need to be done. Laundry, dishes, meals, etc... I wish I would of taken the time to be and enjoy each moment with my kiddies...

I have often wondered why the Lord gives us children when we are young and selfish and immature and lack wisdom. I know one reason why we have them when we are young, because we are too tired when we are older to handle the demands of continuous action and questions.

I know the Lord redeems. I know He has covered all my mistakes and errors as a parent and sees my heart as I cry out before Him on behalf of each of my children. I know this, and yet, there is still a part of my heart that weeps over it. I wish I was tucking them in their cribs and bunks tonight with much laughter and kisses and hugs and reading and prayers. Jessica with her Teddy. Mike with Duke, and Laura with her monkey.